Where I Stand

New name

Sun, 11 Apr 2004 20:50:11 GMT

I have a new name....You can add it.....or you dont have too.....But I want a clean new start on things.....And this is where It begins...Its wondering_mindz........I'll still write in this one as well.......If you add me....I'll add you back.

Yeah

Sun, 11 Apr 2004 15:53:23 GMT

This weekend was pretty un-eventful....Yeah.......Friday I did almost nothing....worked came home played w/ Tyler until he left....blah blah blah....I seen B and ToeKnee...Went to Jasons and passed out on his chest litterally after being there for 5 minutes....Woke up....Got something to eat w/ Jason before he went to work.....Napped while Keith Sobo and Jason played video games...boo.....Crystal came and took me to her house so I could get my car....Went home and showered...Went to the store and went back to Jasons......Started drinking w/ Mike....Jason comes home....and its video games for the rest of the night.....I was so freaking bored.....I wanted to go home becuz i cant take watching video games anymore....I'm out of the house every other weekend and I dont wanna sit and watch games....They played from like 10:45pm....and I woke up at 11am and Mike was still playing.....I don't see how they can do that...So pretty much, my weekend sucked......I wanted to spend time WITH Jason....Not Jason and his video games...And next weekend he's going outta town....and comes back just in time for a stupid batchalor party at his house....-rolls eyes- there is nothing I hate more than skanky ass strippers...And I work from like 8am to 9pm on friday........and go back in at like 6am for inventory.....Go me....I cant wait -psh- So needless to say....I'm in a pretty funky mood today....I feel like I got nothing accomplished....I go in late to work tomorrow because Tyler has a doctors appointment...So I'll be working until' 6:30 instead of 5....yay for work....O'well its money right ..yeah......So other than that.....I miss Jason.....Becuz its like I barely spent time w/ him.......thats how i feel.......But I dont know...Its whatever I guess.....I'm out of here now...

Wed, 07 Apr 2004 22:41:59 GMT

Are we in need of a haters night this weekend?????? I feel the need to get DRUNK.....k great!

Wed, 07 Apr 2004 05:24:45 GMT

worked 10 hours today. Worked my ass off......the end.

Why should i be the one doing this?

Mon, 05 Apr 2004 04:25:31 GMT

Dear Michael,

I have no idea why I'm even doing this, or where to even begin. Maybe because I'm a little older now? I'm not really sure. I guess your name has come up a few times in the past week or so....So it made me wonder, were u even still alive? Even though you have NEVER and I stress NEVER been their for me...I got curious...What are you like? What do you look like? Did you have any more kids? Did you ever get married again? Some of the answers I already know..It's funny how I havent even heard from u since I was 11 years old..But I can still pick out your voice when you randomly call. You didnt even ask to speak to me. Why? Were you scared that I was gonna yell at you...tell you what I was really thinking, or what I've really thought all these years....In a way I dislike you so so much...But in another way I'm really grateful you were never their..Because I have a great father now...Someone who has been there for me since I can remember...To wipe my tears away....To talk to.....Who listens to me.....Something you were never their for....I have so many questions.....I don't even know how to state some w/out sounding so mean and bitter. Its like, what did I ever do to you, to make you not come around? Because I'm almost positive I never did anything....Were you just that careless and wanted to take no responsibility? When you were in prison....you'd write me random letters, you couldnt even spell my name right half of the time...I have a brother whom I've never met because of you..I've had 22 years of curiosity,anger and a million and one more emotions built up....So I guess its about due time that I shared them with you....That I become the bigger pesron here...
Mom told me all the things you have wrong with you....And I'm almost certain...that if you were in good health..I wouldnt be writing this letter to you. I feel bad even writing to you because I dont want to make my dad upset..I don't know what he would think and I don't really want to find out.
I'll continue leter Tyler is up

Tylers on a roll....litterally.

Sat, 03 Apr 2004 19:42:33 GMT

So two seconds ago, Tyler was laying next to me....I turn to sign online and look back and he's clear across the floor next to the tv watching it....He's a fast lil monkey......he's on his way back to me now haha Cept he's about to get stuck by the swing. He's grabbing it and trying to push and he's grunting......But he's not budging it.Hollaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa Alright.....I'm off to clean up this hole since I never have time after work...cuz I'm either too tired or i gotta attend to other stuff....tah tah

Fri, 02 Apr 2004 18:01:09 GMT

I'm at work.....I think my lunch break is over...we have at the least 30 orders to do...so i should be going.....thank God Odell isnt here today....He's on my last nerve.........tah tah kiddies

So, Uhm...

Thu, 01 Apr 2004 05:29:50 GMT

Ive been working my ass off......Today I came home exhausted..Fell asleep and woke up at 10:10 ......whoops....I was late picking up Tyler....ner.....Came home n played w/ him for a bit....and now he's finally asleep :) He's so handsome....Okay, I don't feel like writing......night

Tue, 30 Mar 2004 08:47:56 GMT

I'm sleepy. and I miss my boyfriend so bad.

Yup

Mon, 29 Mar 2004 04:47:18 GMT

i had a great weekend....all though i missed tyler something aweful....I love Jason to the fullest.......no if ands or buts about it...Work tomorrow....The end

p.s. I met Jess' goofy ass<3

yee haaw

Thu, 25 Mar 2004 03:55:04 GMT

la ti da.......Today was an okay day......I did a lot of orders today...Then at 4:30 Mike left (the boss) so that means......no bosses....ha....so Mike showed me how to do this billing stuff...and well....He didnt explain it very well cuz he was in a big hurry....He had to catch a plane to go to Chicago for meetings and stuff....So I finally get it..and get that done....and then I billed out the orders for fed-ex ups and con-way.So then Big D was taking the labels and sticking them on the boxes and thought he put the wrong one on the box...so we are going thru tons of boxes to try and find it....and ner....it was box 1 sitting with all the box 11's...had us all worried n shit for nothing cuz ups was gonna be their in like 5 minutes....ner.....we were all done by 5:45 so we sat doing nothing until 6:30....so Link and James had to lock up..
Came home ate dinner cuz I was freaking starving...Jason came over..and we played w/ tyler and watched law & order....it was funny......Tyler was laying on me and he scooted his way over to jason and landed in his lap...and then head butted him and tried to eat his nose......he was laughing.....to adorable...he left at 10 ....and here I am about to go to bed cuz I'm beat.....This work isnt hard..just a lot of shit is heavy and my back hurts.....bah bah.....but its well worth the money , ill tell u that much!!!

<33333333 to my two babys <333333333

Wed, 24 Mar 2004 13:13:55 GMT

Welp. I'm gettin ready for work again....Its a cool work place....but that shit is heavy...ner......I came home last night with a bad back ache..boooooo
thats all....buh bye

k

Sun, 21 Mar 2004 19:38:41 GMT

so Tyler was being a lil booger last nite....He wouldnt let me lay him down in his crib....He wouldnt let go of me if i tried to put him down...he wouldnt sleep unless it was on my chest .Which meant I couldnt sleep. O'well I guess.......I start my job tomorrow..The end.

the run down.

Sat, 20 Mar 2004 04:48:38 GMT

My baby came and seen me last night after he got off work! I was totally happy. I hadnt seen him in what seemed to be, forever. He played with Tippy Canoe for a bit and then I put him to bed......Tippy is trying like hell to crawl, It's funny, he can't even sit up w/out support but yet he wants to crawl....He pushes his legs up and sticks his butt in the air....but he lays his head down while he's doing it....Or he wont 'pick up' his chest and he's dead weight in the front.....So then he gets aggravated and starts waddling on his belly with his legs and arms in the air sqweeling.....Really adorable. I gave him some mashed potato's today and he loved them.....When he eats his cereal he manages to get most of it on him....but with the potato's he kept it all in his mouth...I was feeling inside his mouth and I FINALLY felt a bump where his tooth is trying to come in.....This child has been teething for atleast 3 months now.....He started pretty early...But its slowly coming along..Thank goodness..maybe he'll stop being cranky at times lol.......O'well....being a mom is great...even though I miss my social life....But thats okay.........

So I got the call today......I got my job...I start monday...$11 an hour...probation for 6 months....After three months I get a review and my benifits kick in, and If they are satisfied......I get a 35 cent raise....KICK ASS So that brings me to my next subject....I'm going to go look at this house tomorrow at 10am about renting it....It looks nice on the outside...my dad is a bit worried though.....cuz the neighborhood isnt too swift...but hell.....almost anywhere these days arent safe....and its LITTERALLY down the street....next to the school...Atleast i'd be close to home n stuff like that....They want $575 a month.....but he said we can work on that price....Hopefully I can get him down to $550 or less.....So he'd want first months rent plus the deposite which is the same as the first months rent.....so If i do $550.....it would be $1,100....Which I have.....but I dont wanna use it all for that....I need furniture and all the other things that comes along with it......Maybe I can make payments on furniture and stuff and then just go ahead and use the $1,100 for it......Thats IF I get it....I'm not sure.....My mom thinks I should look at other places too before I deside....But if I got an apartment...I'd need a co-signer.....and i dont have someone to do that for me..SO I think this is a good option for me.....I dunno....So I'll be making good money......I'll be able to pay for it....Plus the child support I'm gettin for Tyler will help me out w/ utilities and stuff like that....$290 and some odd cents a month.....I dig.
Bed time....Goodnight young grasshoppers<33

True Story

Fri, 19 Mar 2004 03:02:59 GMT

I'm inlove with the best man in the world..The mind

i forgot to change the maiden name ....ner

Thu, 18 Mar 2004 01:41:16 GMT

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this and that

Wed, 17 Mar 2004 01:40:05 GMT

I finally got my ham and pineapple pizza...I was so excited.
Well I didn't get anything accomplished tonight that I wanted to....I need to get my things together for court tomorrow, and well, Fred didnt take Tyler today, So I got none of it done. I'm asking my mom if she will watch Tyler over night tomorrow so I can go out w/ Jason n stuff for St. Patricks day....but its not looking to swell......We'll see...
My grandpa and two cousins got back from Florida today, they are all tan....fuckers....My lil cousin Katie was so excited....thats all she did was talk about her trip while she was here....She got this big hat looking thing.....Like the one mickey wears ''magical one'' and its big n blue....I put it on Tyler and took a picture of it...He even smiled a little bit for it..
Well thats all for now...Besides the fact I think I'm finally gettin my mind back on track and in the right order....YaY me~!

awe haha

Tue, 16 Mar 2004 17:59:43 GMT

♥Melissa and ♥Jason

Might have all robot kids.
Are prone to play all kinds of games nearly everywhere.
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♥Melissa and ♥Jay

Plan to conceive a gruesome kid.
Elect to kiss at the most inconvenient times.
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Mon, 15 Mar 2004 21:58:30 GMT

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Sun, 14 Mar 2004 20:00:40 GMT

Lets see ......Friday.....I went to the car show w/ Brian...left there and went to Cuntneys......Seen a shit load of people.....Kristina n Nicci<3 .....whom I never see...Left and went to Jasons....Sat up (kinda) w/ him Sobot...Mike...JoshE..and Sarah...went to bed at like 5am...which im totally not used to....woke up w/ my stomach hurting from drinking.....Crystal came n got me......went to my house got in the shower.....got my car.........went to brians.....chilled out w/ more people.......went back to jasons and went to bed.....

p.s I'm tired of the ''bad mouthing'' you got going on....U need to get it right and realize nothing is really wrong....stop feeling sorry for yourself...and dont u EVER FUCKING LIE TO ME AGAIN....i do NOT put up w/ that fucking bullshit..PERIOD.........and u KNOW who im talking about...i just choose to remain nameless .....the end.

Sat, 13 Mar 2004 21:53:32 GMT

last nite was fun......then the end sucked.....then I got in a fight w/ jason.....then it was better.....the end

Fri, 12 Mar 2004 08:24:32 GMT

oh pish posh.....my background isnt working now....how lame.

this that and the other

Fri, 12 Mar 2004 06:03:33 GMT

I said I was gonna do this a few days ago....so....here it is

I miss

I miss being careless
I miss coming and going as I please
I miss my grandmother
I miss my best friend Dave
I miss my old life
I miss a good nights sleep
I miss the old relationship I had w/ Jason
I miss the good parties from back in the day
I miss people from my old job
I miss having money
I miss Jason
I miss my figure
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I'm thankful for my family
I'm thankful for my son
I'm thankful for my boyfriend
I'm thankful for my relationship
I'm thankful for my friends
I'm thankful for my car
I'm thankful for the house I live in
I'm thankful for my life
I'm thankful for my everyday needs
I'm thankful for my alone time
I'm thankful for my everything
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I hate the way I yell
I hate the way I cry
I hate the way I get angry
I hate when I feel stuck
I hate being jealous
I hate feeling unneeded
I hate my life changed so drastically so fast
I hate how I have to sacrafice everything when Tylers dad sacrafices nothing
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I love Tyler
I love Jason
I love Teddy
I love Kristina
I love Patrick
I love Courtney
I love Crystal
I love Mom n Dad
I love the rest of my family
I love Joey and Mikey
I love Nicci (even though we havent hung out in forever)
I love JoshE
and I'm sure there is more.....Goodnight young Grasshoppers....

Sorry, I got bored

Thu, 11 Mar 2004 18:59:57 GMT

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